Now YOU think YOU know me :)

[Friday, February 16, 2007 . been said and done.]

sometimes you feel like you repeat yourself so much
it makes you sick.

sometimes you know you can't help but say the same things over and over again
hoping that some things will change.

sometimes you think you can escape from a bad day
just by ignoring the bad stuff.

sometimes you believe things will get better
so that life can get easier.

sometimes.
you never know.

i blogged today at 11:15 am 0 Comment(s) ------ [Sunday, February 04, 2007 . when the world comes crumbling down.]

when the world comes crumbling down around you
in no particular way
when reason don't come easy no more

what's left to hide
to say
to play
when the walls are stripped to its bare

the pain is invisible
the tears run dry
life's momentum is humming
beating the drums

o my heart

(sylvia 040207)

i blogged today at 10:45 am 0 Comment(s) ------ [Friday, October 06, 2006 . happy mid-autumn festival!]

It's the time of the year again! mooncakes, lanterns, pomelo... :D

It's said that it's a day to moon-gaze. A day when the moon is the roundest and brightest. It's a day to celebrate "roundness" - meaning togetherness, like yuan2 yuan2 man3 man3. With family and loved ones. :)

Never to old to carry lanterns n light some candles. :D Look at the moon and give thanks for all the good things in life.

Happy Mid Autumn!

i blogged today at 6:31 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Tuesday, August 22, 2006 . hols are over. back to work!]

school is kind of a refreshing change from the hols. in an ironic way, i'm loving the way i have to wake up earlier n sleep later just so i can cram a few more paragraphs of reading into my head. maybe i'm a bit perverse. :S

to those in the same boat as me, school's cool cos we're in our graduating or penultinate year of study! is it not? :) for me, things are starting to look clearer, fall into place and i can make some linkages between what i've studied for the past sems and in this present sem. and i think that's cool. for me, at least. :D

but i'm still normal. i'm also looking forward to the dec break when i can do all the fun holiday stuff again. :) it just feels kinda nice to learn again. it's not everyday that i feel intelligent, or that my brain's working some of its juices to its full capacity.

i'm still thinking about whether or not i should attempt my HT or do an ISM module. there are still modules that i wanna take next sem. i don't have enough space in my module curriculum to do everything i wanna do!! :( i'm a little crazy, but if i don't have to consider workload n CAP, i'd definitely do everything i fancy. see how i hate administrative restraints and the pedantic attention to silly details. :S

let's pull up our CAPs tgt this sem!!!
other things will fall into place. :) i'm sure.
jia you k. :) :) :)

i blogged today at 12:40 am 0 Comment(s) ------ [Monday, July 17, 2006 . red star dim sum! yum!]

tdy was meeting up with jasmine n her family day.
we haven met in like light years.
and it was really nice. :)
like. for a brief moment flashes of our childhood holidays came back to me.
and i saw jasmine when she was little.
and realised we're all still pretty much the same.
she's funkier now tho'.
esp. the pin/batch she had on her bag. it's like. ffffff. hahaha. ooops.
marcus didnt come. he's busy racing. woohoo! like. racing. :D
dim sum was nice. :) :) i like the char siew soh. the peh dan zuk. the spring roll looking thing.

auntie stephanie looks slimmer!! michelle said ppl will slim down quite a bit when they age. i think my mum too. but what about our dads?! *teehee*

we shopped at OG and People's Park after lunch. SHOPPING together feels fantabulous. :D
michelle got dancing shoes! silver n nice! *wheet*
i got a white bag. :) nice!! i loveee. a belt too. :D
michelle got a bag for like $5.90. *wheeet*
and oh!! pads are going like $2.90 for 2 packs of 10! it's like sooo cheap!! so we bought.

and u know wat.
we actually took the wrong shopping bags home.
sigh. so uncle had to drive all the way to our house to exchange.
bummer. :(

it's a great day. tho' i had to go teach in the evening. but it all felt good. CONNECTION is the word. i feel connected. :)

ting. GP must jia you. dun be frustrated k. u can do it.

i blogged today at 12:01 am 0 Comment(s) ------ [Sunday, June 25, 2006 . world cup mania!]

guess wat!
i've been catching world cup! :) not that i'm feeling that much of a fever for the ball and all.. (falling asleep during the second half most times), but heyyy i've been watching soccer... :D it gets even more exciting when u're banking on some teams to win...hee. subtlety is the key?

happens every 4 years but the last world cup didnt seem that far away.
i think i'm looking forward to 2010 already. :)

i read some news on Victoria Beckham. she's a WAG (short for wives n girlfrens of the soccer dudes) who has legs as thin as matchsticks. reports state that she has a sour face on all the time. probably due to stress from competition with the other WAGs when they sweep through the shopping malls and all. hmm. news/gossips about soccer players like Beckham fill the tabloids. and i read them. more than the real soccer news. :X hee.

that's my kind of soccer mania. small mania. :D

mango is having sale now. FINALLY. i got 2 spags and a bag. not that i badly wanted them before the sale began or what. i just had to get smth when they finally put up the SALE sign. :) :)the isetan mango outlet actually cordons off the area, okay, maybe not cordon, but they have like barriers and direction-signs showing u where to queue n walk n all... and the number of women there... woahh i tell u... :D tells u one thing: women dig sales. and i'm a very willing victim of this whole SALE hype.

school's reopening tmr for the young ones. (ahh i feel ancient)
sister's gonna have her block tests. i look at her and i see stress oozing out of every pore on her body. okay, that's gross. but u get the picture. :S
TING! JIA YOU! we all know u can do it!!!! :D :D

i have one and a half months to go before my hols end. :) let's just not think about it.

jas. yes yes. i know. i should be very guilty. TWICE!! what is this!!! *slaps my face*
let's do 6th. and plan more. tree top. exercise. swim. shop. eat. wala(?). TALK. -very guilty now-

i need to read n become wiser.

i blogged today at 2:54 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Sunday, May 28, 2006 . nothing ventured nothing gained.]

it's a rainy sleepy sunday.
been teaching since morning. :)
it isn't too tiring, physically. just mentally.
exasperated.
the kids are just not worried about their work.
lethargic.
restless.
lazy.
exasperation. -tears hair-

makes me feel really lousy sometimes.
why can't i motivate them more? =X

oh well.

some updates.
jas, weijie n i went for Fight Hunger Walk last sunday! :)
it was a good 5km walk into MacRitchie 'forest', up the side-road and back to the starting point. wasn't too bad considering i seldom exercise. haha. -flab alert-
i'm not too sure if it's considered doing much for a good cause. but we got t-shirts. the money goes to the children's pocket money i think. :) oh yes, jas. i owe u. u dun "syl" me k.
when are we meeting for dinner? we're still treating u k. :) :)
no more night life for u? hahaha. hmm. not supposed to laugh. oops. wala soon. :)

got my results. -happy- have to continue striving for next sem. just 2 more sems to go (for me). let's all jia you tgt k. *pours oil*

went cycling at ecp yesterday. my butt aches tdy. my legs too. but that shows my muscles have been working. good sign! :D

hmmm.

i'm really not very good at keeping a blog.
i'm already at the loss for what to say.
mans. -.-"

hmmm.

this must be the 101th time i'm saying this, but time really flies. i'm close to about a month into my hols already. *shrieks* 3 months is gonna zzzooooom past before i know it. -mans-

in a small way. i'm kinda looking forward to studying again. not so soon. but to know that i've got modules ahead of me is kind of comforting. and i'm not being a nerd here. =X
maybe, i dun wanna stop studying so soon. the thought of graduating in a year's time kinda scares me. it's like, next time people (relatives) see me, they'll go, oh, working now? old already lah!!! -faints-

earning my own keep is a very self-sufficient, esteem-boosting, spirit-lifting thing. but then, to be out there in the dog-eat-dog, crammed full of politics n back-stabbing (ok, a dark side painted. i know it can be nice n sunny too.) world can be kinda depressing. i look at some of my friends and i'm like. *oh my* i love my current occupation.

that's in 1 year's time. plus plus.
so it's just a wee bit early to think too much. :) phews.

looking forward to my hols still.
i love spending time. :D with.

you. and you. and you.

i blogged today at 4:12 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Monday, May 15, 2006 . my new moo.]

my new moo layout.
jasmine's credit. tks babe! :)
it's so cow-y. like moooooooo.... :D

it's mother's day today!
happy mother's day, mum!
i love you. :)

i'm only like, 2 weeks into my hols.
the feeling is great. :)
like i have so much time in my hands.
i can sleep in, walk around the house, think of what i wanna do...
the feeling of being free!!! glorious! :) :)

but of cos, there are things that i must do.
1) tuition. that's for sure.
2) help my sis with her GP - a must must.
3) meet up with friends!
4) spending time with you! :)
5) learn how to cook. *ahem*
i can cook a little, okay.

hmmm. not really conversational tonight.
kinda sleepy.
*yawns*

jas, i'll see u tmr yeah. :) catch up then.

i blogged today at 1:11 am 0 Comment(s) ------ [Sunday, May 07, 2006 . summer hols!]

it's been a while.
:)
the hols are here.
very relieved.
:)
gotta catch up with tuition for now.
kids are having exams.

lotsa ambitious holiday plans.
:)
fulfilling is another matter altogether.
but it's okae.
i have time!
whee!

shout-outs:

-jasmine- eh. dun fret k. no deportment. -.-" our hunger walk. looking forward! :) and that law-man. no biggie k. he's small fry. small. :)

-ting- boo. be good yeah. dun bump ur head pls. looking forward to ur performance. go n kick ass babe!!! :) p/s: GP is being prayed for. u will get there. yes!

-you- happy!! :) happy!! :) happy!! :)

the hols are here.
:)

i blogged today at 10:19 am 0 Comment(s) ------ [Wednesday, February 01, 2006 . Backstreet's Back Alright!]

This is a week+ a day late, but BACKSTREET totally rocked my socks off last Tuesday. =D It was so good, I was left screaming for more when I got home and my toilet got the better of my roaring. *ahem* singing.

Am I original... Yeahhhh... *swoons*
I totally loved the old songs... Those that Jasmine and I could soo relate to.. =D Quit Playing Games with My Heart...As Long As You Love Me...All I Have to Give...I'll Never Break Your Heart...These were just so primary-going-on-secondary-school-dish... =)
Then there's I Want It That Way, The Call, Larger Than Life, More Than That, Shape of My Heart, Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely...The sweat-inducing, scream-inviting, totally pulsating beats of our teenage, hormonal adolescent years. Man, I was transported back to the days when I totally adored the five boys. =D hee. Not that I don't love them now. I still do. Whee. =) And Jas, Nick is big-built. Not fat. I don't care. *hahaha* He's still blonde and cute. And I still look at him through my 15-year-old eyes. *swoons more*

I love Crawling Back To You now. It's so... boy-bandish. So young. =)

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

Love love love. Boy loves girl. Forever. Love love love.
How so sweet.
There are times when I just like to listen to songs that just go way off the reality platform. =)
Like, Daydreaming.

Oh yes, it wasn't very cheap, but it's BSB!! They were just like 100-200 metres away from me! hahaha. Actually I can't estimate properly, but, they just weren't very far. =D I wanted to shake their hands. hahaha. Of cos I couldn't. But I take lotsa pride *beams* in being in the same "room" with them. (along with thousands of others. -.-") The atmosphere was just so great. We stood up half the time, swaying, singing, screaming, swooning with all the aunties, girls, ladies.. Jas, we rocked man. =) I'm so glad we went. Who says last minute decisions are bad right? =D

I wanna say more. But I can hear my tuition kid calling me. -.-"

I love you, BSB. Ah, this love is forever. Like ur songs. =)

i blogged today at 6:26 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Wednesday, January 18, 2006 . second week.]

Second week of school feels 1) mundane. Work is coming in relentlessly. Readings after readings. Ah, but what's there to complain. Already seasoned right. Right. -.-"
2) good. Because cny is just around the corner, and that gives me more reason to cut some slack and just look forward to the glorious food. Pineapple tarts. YUM!!
3) scary. It's the second week already. There are only 17 weeks in all this sem (alot. yucks.) Oxymoron? hmm. It sure feels like it cos like, so much time yet so little time. I want the hols to come. I wanna play. But I wanna graduate asap too. So. Oh well. Hang in there, fellow comrades.

I'm doing a feminist module this sem. It rocks. Haha. I'm not a radical, don't hound me. I just like reading more about this whole gender divide thing. Static myth, Eternal Feminine, Narcissism. Nice big words. Ahhh. I love the way they roll in my mouth. (Ignore me. I'm tired.)

I wanna go watch BSB. But it's all about the money. Do I want to pay soo much to watch them? Jasmine. What's ur take. To go or not to go. I think of Blue and the stonish audience.. I'm like.. But when I think of how we can croon, dance and go mad with their songs, I'm like..
HELP! How!! haha.

CNY is coming..!! I want to eat pineapple tarts and not grow fat. haha. I want to eat alot alot. I have a sudden craving now. YuM.

Jasmine, get that maroon with golden streaks. I think it'll look damn hot. Can't wait for In Her Shoes. And where has our treetop gone. I think we can make a CNY resolution. Capital E. We really need to get our bums working. Mine's beginning to sag. =S

i blogged today at 11:43 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Sunday, January 01, 2006 . happy 2006]

goodbye 2005, hello 2006.

recollections recollections recollections.
reflections reflections reflections.
resolutions resolutions resolutions.

all the Rs.

i recollect all the happy times. all the things to be thankful for. all the beautiful memories. all the blessings. all the laughter.

i reflect on past mistakes. the lessons learnt. the difficult paths n decisions. the pain and the worries. the disappointment. the tears.

i resolve to be a better person. a better daughter. a better sister. a better friend.

hello 2006, goodbye 2005.

i blogged today at 10:00 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Friday, December 23, 2005 . sentosa!]

sentosa.palawan beach.blue sky.bright sun.nice shade.cool breeze.waves.sand.
blue-green fishy mat.12 sandwiches.apples.pear.kokocrunch.twix.plain water.
our masterpiece.pictures.burnt skin.sexy tan.
eat.talk.smile.talk somemore.pose.smile.eat.talk.smile.smile.smile.
sun that never sets.

sentosa is as beautiful as us.

i blogged today at 12:50 am 0 Comment(s) ------ [Monday, December 19, 2005 . up in the highlands.]

I'm back from a short trip up in Genting. =) It was pretty good. Sat a few rides at the theme park, went shopping (like crazy), ate ice-cream (yum!) and just bummed around. Spending time with my sis n cousins were the best... We played (alot of) 'Murderer'... went for rides tgt... ate tgt... =) happy. Oh, four of us (the older ones) went to play pool on the last night there! haha we had a great time. Laughed alot. In short, it was a good, fulfilling trip in every sense of the word.

I finally sat on the ferris wheel that I've been craving for! Sat with my two younger cousins. They seem almost as thrilled as me. =D It's like taking a slow climb to the top... and u're like breathing the air up there... and looking down at the people getting smaller n smaller... I thought, man, the view from heaven. I'd want a maginifying glass. Ok, that's random. =) I still love the ferris wheel.

Oh, had my first tour in a casino. Not very glam. Smoky. =S It wasn't too big a deal. But there were lots of people in there. Betting on luck. Not a very good option I'd say. Fate/Luck/And all those iffy stuff are crazy things. We always say "it must be Fate", but somehow we always twist our words, meddle with different propositions to make everything seem like Fate had it its way -- we blame it sometimes, we credit it other times. It's probably all in the mind. Ok, one trip to the casino doesn't warrant a philosophical debate. =D

Genting's good. For a short trip. For some bonding. =D

Christmas is just around the corner. One week away!!! =D I want to eat log cake. Chocolate. Ah... Chocolate. Just saying it makes me happy. CHOCOLATE!! Shouting it makes me feel like I can taste it. (You know that's an exaggeration.) =D

School's 22 days away. Fast.

I don't wanna think about work.

I want ice-cream.

Hmmm... I think I won't be blogging any time soon... So a very Merry Christmas to all.. =D And a Happy 2006!! Looking forward is very uplifting. =)

i blogged today at 12:31 am 0 Comment(s) ------ [Sunday, November 06, 2005 . alright, here i am.]

You heard my sis. I'm lagging. Haha. Alright.. Here I am. *what do I say*

As usual, about school -- the sem is coming to an end. *again* It's all good because I'm enjoying this sem's modules. No point talking about the workload being heavy because it's just gonna get heavier from here. Just gotta work along with it. =) I can't wait to lay my hands on lit again next sem. Wow, so enthusiastic eh. Yeah right. =D

Ting, I know CenTaD's gonna take up almost the whole of your hols. The thought of it makes me feel like hugging you. Sometimes I think you work too hard. Ok, wrongly put. I think you overload yourself, but in a way, it's not too bad a thing cos I think you work well under stress. I know doing well means alot to you. So JIA YOU! I'm behind u all the way. Overload or not. I'm always here if u need to talk, to cry, to gush, to laugh, anything. everything. BUT!! PLEASE DON'T put extra stress on yourself -- i.e. Don't think u are fat and try to stress urself by eating less and all that cos for one, I know u can never resist ur food temptations and feeling guilty after indulging urself will only make u feel more stressed and when u feel more stressed u wanna eat more and that's a BIG vicious cycle that u can't break away from. For two, you are not fat. -.-" Ppl out there are dying to have ur kinda of body. U have a fan at home already. Me.
Yeah, okae, this is not some subtle, cunning way to ask u not to diet. It's just a big sis being concerned. =D Ah, I love you. GP tmr ya.

JASMINE, u WORKAHOLIC with a CAPITAL W. Okae, the entire word is capitalised. Which really emphasizes my point. U work sooo hard. SUNDAY. Hello. Get urself out of the office. Ok, I shouldn't be so harsh. You're just so.. responsible. =) haha really babe. It's not a bad thing to wanna work n clear ur stuffs. BUT. It's scary when u feel guilty about not working when it's a SUNDAY. Sunday. Rest day. Family day. Chill day. Babe. Come on.
I'm glad Tues is on. I miss u. =D

Ok, I just had to address my sis n Jasmine. haha. Fill up the space eh. I've got nothing much to blog about myself. Except that, I think I'm happy. Happy. Happy to be here. To be. Happy.

Last week of school. Study break. Exams. Free. For a month. Christmas. Love. Fun. Life.

I wanna sing and dance n go for a ride. Ferris Wheel. Whee. =)

Alright, *I've said*

i blogged today at 5:05 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Tuesday, September 20, 2005 . Qui Dam!]

I watched Quidam with Kelly last Friday and it was really great!! =)
The big blue tents were totally awesome -- so circus-y and surreal. haha. Guess it's cos we only have circuses here once in a while. We were seated in tent 8, and our view was not bad...quite near to the performing circle. We were in the B reserve but the seats were cool enough...real happy! =D Many thanks to daddy. (he got our tics.)

Kelly and I kinda dressed up for that day. =D (we both agreed to look mei2 mei3.) We both had a long day in uni till 6 but that didn't stop us from wanting to look pretty when we had the slightest chance to. (not that we're not pretty usually. haha. =P) We rushed down to beach rd in a cab after mktg tut, ate a nice chicken-rice dinner and seated ourselves smugly in anticipation for the performance to begin! Ahhhh... we were really excited!!

There's no way I can describe how awe-inspiring and fantastic the performance was. The stunts and moves and dances were absolutely jaw-dropping, cold-sweating, scream-inducing and I gasped n gasped n gasped. Kelly was great. =) She also jaw-dropped, cold-sweated, gasped and gasped n gasped. And the comic relief parts!!! THEY WERE SOOO FUNNY!!!!!! Kelly n I laughed like nobody's business, really out loud till our sides ache and we were grabbing each other's hands. Haha. =D We really enjoyed ourselves. That's the best part.

So go catch Quidam if you can!! It's really worth it!!

I love performances. =)

I wanna go for more performances, plays, movies...anyone? Jas, pick a play. =D

Mid-sem break now. What a break when we all have to trudge down to school everyday for project meetings, research and what-not. But it's cool. At least we don't have lectures and tuts for 4 days. 4 DAYS!!! Ah!!! Don't end!!!

Ok, dinner time. Noodles. Yum!

i blogged today at 6:41 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Monday, September 05, 2005 . swamped.]

I'm more than swamped by readings. The list goes on and on and before this week's work is done, next week's work is well on the way and it all backlogs and accumulates like nobody's business. My sense of urgency sometimes just doesn't keep up with the increasing amount of work. My inertia is directly proportional to the acceleration of lecture content I have to slog through to understand, the endless number of readings I have to do, the tutorials to prepare and let's not talk about the quizzes, assignments and projects. Talk about procrastination.

Perhaps harping on my i-should-be-happy-that-i'm-still-studying-life isn't gonna help much. But I just love to complain. Don't you? =D

*groan* READINGS....

Oh! I watched Betrayal with Jas on Sunday night...=) I guess we both agreed that the content was a little dense...and perhaps the theme/message of the play was a little lost on us... (we just refuse to acknowledge that we're old enough to understand the pains and emotional baggage of a somewhat broken marriage. Self-realisation/enlightenment is inversely proportional to age in this case. Just in this case. Mind you.) We sat RIGHT IN FRONT. Thanks dad. It felt pretty good being that close to the actors. I could see every single expression. =D
It was a good night-out. We managed to catch up while stuffing ourselves (alright, we were savouring.) with Thai cuisine. (This was before the play.) Haha. Glass noodles, prawns, seafood....TOUFU!! ohh...toufu was nice...=) Next time I'll go with a really empty stomach so I can finish up my food. My glass noodles was wasted on me. =(
But eating was fun. So was talking. It's always nice to catch up with friends you can be really comfortable with -- whom you can joke with and when your joke falls flat, you're okay with that cos you know it would be soon when she will do the same. Haha. (I'm kidding, Jas. You know you're funnier than me. =D) Let's do this again soon. This time, we'll choose a laugh-out-loud, sadistic murder comedy, so we can at least pretend to identify with the play. Haha.

I'm still bogged down. By readings. And why am I not feeling guilty about being online and not doing my work. Drats.

Alright. That's it for this post.

---stronger, than yesterday---

i blogged today at 11:57 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Saturday, August 13, 2005 . if tomorrow never comes.]

If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

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i blogged today at 11:36 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Tuesday, August 09, 2005 . Happy 40th Birthday, Singapore!!]

Happy 40th Birthday, Singapore!! =)

National Day always makes me feel...hmm...What would be a good word to describe...vaguely patriotic? Like...hmm...haha. I guess, it just makes me feel real happy to be here. Safe, at home. It's really nice seeing all the happy, enthusiastic faces waving the national flag, singing the national day songs, taking the pledge, smiling and smiling and smiling. I love Singapore. I love my home.

Aw, isn't that sweet.
Don't go puking at me. Come on.

TODAY (the paper) had this National Day special 'edition', where it had articles on Singaporean issues, like, about how we've come so far, about the upcoming elections, about the arts scene, about how this lady calls Singapore "Land of Dreams" etc...

Reading these articles....hmm...sets me thinking...I can't really concretise my thoughts right now. But so far, I'm just grateful to be here -- part of Singapore, part of this generation of people. There's like, so much ahead of us. So many things to work for, to look forward to. Alot of uncertainties, alot to build up on. But it's all good. Cos we're all here. We've really come so far. We've so much to be proud of and so much to learn too. haha. oh my. Rambling. =S

Someone nominate me for saccharine patriotism. Whee.

I think I'm just happy.

Happy.

oh yeah.

Happy as can be.

Woohoo.

School has finally started, by the way.
Gonna work my guts out this sem.
I must, and I will.
Try me.
=D

i blogged today at 10:35 pm 0 Comment(s) ------ [Sunday, July 31, 2005 . we forget.]

I just watched President Star Charity. It's always so nice to see people working together to help the needy. Community effort and all. They raised quite alot of money. It's really good. The President's Challenge and all that. Yeah.

I guess it makes us feel better to know that people who need help at least get some help from us. The general us. Yeah, the "feel better" kinda thing. Guess that isn't a very fair thing to say. But yeah. Sometimes I just think so. Feel so. We're forever satisfying some part of ourselves. Ok, not "we", "I" then. =S
But then again, we really do want to help people who need a helping hand, don't we?

Sometimes what we think and feel may not be what we are really thinking and feeling.

Sometimes we think and feel in diametrically opposites. And we wonder if we're weird.

And then we wonder why we wonder.

Ok, not We. It's I.

Socially engineered thoughts and emotions.
Habits.
Creepy. When you get so used to something.
It's hard to get rid of die-hard routines.

hahahah. Ok la, I shan't sound so serious. Dammit. See, my die-hard habit. Seriousness. Wahahah. Yeah right.

Uni is starting soon!!! Year 3 here I come!!!! FAST RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! Can't believe I've already gone thru half of my uni education. It's like, "not fast wat." haha. Before I know it, it's Graduation time. Yayyyy. I wanna wear that BOX hat. haha.

I wanna drive my own car.

I wanna be very smart and intelligent and capable.

I wanna be very slim and pretty.

I wanna be able to help people. Which means, I need to have the means. So yeah, I wanna have the means to help people.

I wanna be bold and daring and not afraid of anything in the world. Insects, heights, blah. Go eat shit and die. haha.

I wanna be a singer, a dancer, an actress, an author, a playwright. Wheet~!

I wanna fly and be invisible.

I wanna.

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MIRROR
I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
What ever you see I swallow immediately
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike.
I am not cruel, only truthful---
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is a part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.
Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me,
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully.
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.
-Sylvia Plath

i want:

-world peace
-less hunger, less pain in the world
-more kows-jr. teehee

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